I’ve made promises to write again for years. I haven’t done it… haven’t been able to do it even when I tried because it wasn’t anything like the Tekwh0re days. I suddenly felt I had to keep on these filters. The corporate world caught me. Life, in a way, caught me. I became more filtered and withdrawn. I also worried slightly if I could capture an audience like I once did. There was a time when I had the likes of Warren Ellis and Paul Pope reading me. But I was semi-hot and intelligent back then. Then the Internet just changed- it became all social media, facebooks, tumblr, twitter, snapchats, etc. And it seemed that even if I wanted to write, the attention span wouldn’t be there because when I write, I write.
I’m older, grayer, colder now but I still get asked about Tekwh0re.net. More so recently. I didn’t realize how ahead of the curve I actually was back then. I should have pushed through and kept going but life has a way of getting in the way. That being said, I also feel we’ve come full circle. All the social media has made things more shallow, more fake, more stupid. And it almost seems that it is time for “old Tek” now, in many ways, to start speaking again. I feel its time to bring back my free-form, stream of consciousness, conversations thrown out to the digital pipleines and what happens, happens. Tekwh0re. net is NEVER coming back. I outgrew her. In truth, you did too. But “Tek” is still here. She never went anywhere and sometimes I wonder if that is both a blessing and a curse.
I’m not going to tell you why you should keep reading this site or what the site is about because I don’t think things always have to be ABOUT something. I think that’s half the problem these days- everyone is trying to be ABOUT SOMETHING instead of just “BEING”. And you know, just being is kinda cool. You don’t always need to justify your fucking existence. So this site is just going to have whatever I feel like talking about or showing you that day, (and knowing me, multiple times a day once I start to get comfortable again).
I know I’ve said this time and time before but I’m going to make a promise to you this first week back: I’m still going to be working on the layout of this place, but I will make a point to post something every day this week. I will ask some understanding- “Stella needs to get her groove back”. It’s been a long time since I truly opened up, like I once did, so things may seem stilted at first. But for once I really do feel like writing raw again. I feel like having a conversation. I feel like TELLING YOU. So if you’ve got some time talk, I now have beer fridge, a wine fridge, AND a cupboard full of teas. Pick your poison, and let’s talk.